Paris, The City of love & Hate

Celebrating my Ex-Love birthday in Paris

 

My love,

It’s the time to tell you about Paris. The city you love most and my first destination in my 2 months trip.

I have arrived Paris on 8th October at 2:00 PM instead of 9:00 AM because I have missed my flight and I waited for the next one.. I was lucky to find another flight that day.

Once I arrived Paris, I felt you everywhere .. Streets, people and everything as you told me.

 

That’s how I spent everyday in Paris

I spent 6 days in Paris and from day one, I was meeting my friend Soha and her kids almost everyday. and we took a lot of pictures. I wish I can share all of them with you ..

 

 

Paris was very familiar to me .. You made me fall in love with it before my visit .. and now I know why you love it..

 

You know why? because it looks like you 🙂

• Soft but tough
• Clean and dirty
• beautiful but ugly sometimes
• Full of love and full of hate
• quite at night but very noisy all the day
• Good and bad
• Fair and unjust person

Paris is everything and it’s opposite, Typically like you! <3

 

I couldn’t stop crying in Paris whenever being alone ..

My tears were like rains in all Paris’s streets ..

My Pray was like poetry in all  Paris’s streets ..

My hope disappeared because I just realized I am achieving our dream but alone..

I didn’t want dreams nor Paris, I wanted you! 🙁

 

My love, That’s how I spent the day before your birthday:

Walking at night in the quite Paris streets while crying because of missing you.. I couldn’t understand myself that day because of that mix of love, hate and fear. I wished someone come from the dark and kill me.

 

 

Your birthday was really tough. I tried to call you to tell you “Happy Birthday my LOVE” but  I couldn’t speak. I was diving in my tears and pain. I wanted to tell you that:

• I forgive you and please back to me ..
• I forgot all your bad action and let’s talk again ..
• I forgot your Mom’s used perfume that you forced me to accept it as a birthday gift. and I don’t want new nor used gifts, I just want you ..
• I forgot your bad situations with my family, and I can make them forgive you ..
• I forgot how your mom was very tough with me, and I will forgive her for you ..

 

But while thinking about Begging you, I opened my eyes and woke up from this nightmare remembering that you are not even a MAN to beg to!

Everyone told me that you are not a man but I was denying this and I was just fighting with them till I cut the communication with everyone in my life. I left all my life for you but you don’t deserve because they were right, you are NOT a man!

 

A REAL MAN never let his girl alone .. but you did with me!

A REAL MAN never punishes his girls because others mistakes .. but you did with me!

A REAL MAN never disappears without saying bye or explaining his decisions .. but you did with me!

A REAL MAN never uses his girl’s feeling and keeps hurting her .. but you did with me!

A REAL MAN never lie to the girl who loves him to death .. but you did with me!

A REAL MAN never compares her with money and values money over his love .. but you did with me!

A REAL MAN never hurt others .. but you do!

A REAL MAN never been a coward .. but you are!!!!!

A REAL MAN always keeps his promises .. but you didn’t with me many many may times!

A REAL MAN always fights the world to be with his true love .. but I know I never been your love form the beginning ..

A REAL MAN always admits his mistakes and say sorry .. but you just made me feel guilty for nothing!

A REAL MAN is someone not YOU! 🙁

 

As I told you my love .. This is Paris, Everything and the opposite in the same time ..

Yes! I love you and I hate you in the same time ..

I forgot the bad you and I still remember the bad you in the same time ..

I forgive, but I feel angry in the same time ..

 

My Love, that’s how I spent the day of your birthday:

Walking everywhere around Paris to keep myself busy and stop crying .. From Louvre Museum to Notre Dam Du Paris along the Seine river then to the Latin Quarter and then back to the hotel to change my cloth and be ready for the big dinner 🙂

 

 

A mix of love and hate, but I love you more and celebrated your birthday in a restaurant in the top of Tour Eiffel.. Having a dinner alone in a place like this was weird for all people there.. but I didn’t care because I have your photo that smiled to me all the night ..

 

Happy Birthday my love, and I wish you always be in a good health. I LOVE YOU!

 

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Also another Good thing happen:

I’d like to share with you the best thing happened to me in your birthday.

I have met Klaus and Gesa that night and I shared with them our story and what is the secret of this photo that I took many pictures with .. They are beautiful couples who have been married for 50 years. They were celebrating Gesa birthday as well.. I love this woman so much because she has the same birthday as you .. and she believes that we will be together again ..

 

 

My Last 2 days in Paris with friends and totally without you!

 

Dear my love,

This is the end of Paris story.. and i will always keep telling myself that you are not a #real_man & you don’t deserve to be loved but unfortunately ILOVEYOU! 🙁 🙂

I love you F***! <3

I love you Paris! <3

Bye Bye Paris! I will be back again but this time not alone!